pink flip-flop kid
down a street howling soundless madness.
you stop to think.
think about what?
an escape? a medicine?
a Jesusing cure?
and, there he is.
a filthy kid in oversized pink flip-flops
is sitting on the ground playing with
something even filthier than himself.
he hits you with a gap toothed grin.
ten years old at best,
and already broken.
he’s not evil or malignant.
but, you know he’ll see the inside of a jail cell
sooner than he’ll see the inside
of a happy family.
you make a paper airplane out of a dollar bill
and sail it down to the kid.
maybe it’s enough to buy a sandwich
or a gumball or some-damn-thing
less filthy than he is.
you look up, and see a man.
a walking catastrophe headed straight for you.
his green eyes are sharp as scalpels,
but his mouth hangs slack, betraying
a lack of something deep and necessary.
he’s the one.
that’s exactly what this pink flip-flop kid will blossom
and he’s the one that popped
the top on your volatile mind
and set you swimming
the magma rage.
you hand him a crumpled 20.
he hands you a small plastic bag.
but, it’s not what you wanted.
not what you asked for,
so there’s no “thank you.”
just a nod, and a long walk back
to some place quiet and dark.
a place to smoke a substandard joint,
empty a worn out soul
and try to forget this rotten
coffins are built from days like this.
but, not my coffin.
I’m not dead yet
you bastard world.
for practical purposes,
my eyes suck at twilight.
can’t see much. so I sit on the porch
sipping hot tea, smoking bowls,
generally loafing and sorting through mental ruins.
then some weird internal shit
I can see whatever I want. not the surface of things;
not the skin, but the stuff beneath it.
and, I see you:
I see you flirting with flaccid art mongers
on the dining porch of some uppity
I see you smoking cigarettes and
making unreadable faces
at manic depressive wolfmen
dressed up as paint-splattered sheep-shit intellectuals.
this is not jealousy.
it’s not even concern.
just a better tragedy to watch than the ones on TV
I do miss you sometimes.
but, only in little pieces:
I miss your smile, but not what that smile meant.
I miss your voice.
but, not the words you said.
I even miss the touch of your skin.
but, not the price I paid to taste that cookie.
you’re like my favorite song being played
by a lousy cover band
in a burning slaughterhouse
full of preachers and politicians
arguing about road maintenance and
I’d rather go deaf than to dance that dance again.
bowl’s cashed, night’s falling
and I’m tired of this miserable moment.
guess I’ll go masturbate to an exercise infomercial
or read the owner’s manual
for my new weed whacker.
wonder if I have any lunch meat left
for a dinner sandwich.
any decent wine?
I don’t know.
I wish something would catch fire
or that a meteor would crash into my house.
every thought I have makes me feel
maybe a stroke or a heart attack?
but, then they’d find me dead on my front porch
still thinking of you.
what an embarrassing fucking eulogy.
guess I’ll have to go on living
until I can find something worth dying for.
oh good! red wine dregs and turkey on rye.
and, here, I thought
I was cursed.
a dragon in a cereal bowl
singing folk songs written by dead people
ghosts floating on marshmallows
dodging the spoon
whispering to the dragon
making fun of my bed hair
then, the news takes off her shirt
and lies spill out in colors and screams
it’s a strange morning
like a real dinosaur showing up
to an elementary school
to tell the science teacher
he has it all wrong
or a man complaining
to the doctor
about how awful
his own semen tastes
sometimes I laugh
just because I’m here
and because “here”
is a ridiculous word that means
I think elephants know more
than they’re telling us
perhaps they could explain
this singing fucking dragon
or why I am here
whatever the hell that means
late for work again.
fucking bastard dragon!
Craytus Jones is a recluse who lives deep in the woods of SE Texas. He makes strange things up. He writes strange things down. He is a strange thing. He has had his poetry, stories and music published different places. He has had his art published. He has had two of his screenplays optioned.